the second week has been the hardest, i’m told time after time never to leave things til’ last minute, but yet again, I have. I completed my past, present and future section explaining my hopes and fears at the same time. This helped me to learn a lot about myself and allow me to view which kind of hopes and fears are the strongest and the ones which I would include. I tried to contain in the project a collection of photo’s which represented the story I was telling to its full potential and also make the layout something different by using different effects which I wasn’t used to, in order to push myself, and not stick to the norm. I began to create my Zine, using Illustrator was something I was definitely not familiar with, this therefore made me have to try and push myself and use the different tools on there to create something which stood out. I wanted to make a good layout as well as include text which relate to the photos which I had taken. I had taken the background of the leaves as well as all the other photo’s involved on the Zine in Kirkstall Abbey Park. There was a wide variety of flora to choose from to help me capture the perfect shots.
The project which I was given for the foundation project at first confused me, I had never heard of a ‘Zine’ in my life. This startled me and I was scared in case everyone around me knew what they had to do, after a while I felt rather silly after knowing it was short for ‘Magazine’. My panic faded. It was hard to come up with a theme straight away, well at least something which I could make a strong opinion on. Our group decided to come up with decay, but instead of us all focusing on one aspect, we decided to choose a seperate topic each, mine being ‘flora’. I managed to collect the photos which I needed by visiting Kirkstall Abbey and looking around the park then looking at different aspects such as leaves, trees and flowers. I believe taking these gave me an insight on a new type of photography because a lot of the photography I have done before has been staged, this allowed me to play around a little. I then took photo’s of different textures which could be used as backgrounds for other projects in the future as well as this one. I believe doing this has helped me to then think about what I am going to write about and also the layout for the Zine.
I never know how to start a blank canvas, especially under the pressure to write something about a thing in particular. To be honest, starting University was a huge blank canvas, new place, new people, new sights… a whole new life. Me and my mam always used to watch the film version of ‘Mamma Mia’ and I always used to dread the part when the daughter leaves, the lyrics from the song which sprang to mind were ‘School bag in hand, she leaves home in the early morning, waving goodbye, with an absent minded smile’, University makes me feel like a young kid again as well as at the same time making me feel like a young woman. The moment came, and I was then the daughter leaving, that young school girl entering the big world, leaving my mam behind. I had doubts about not being able to become independent, the thought of using a washing machine was my worst problem, I was a hundred percent sure that if I used one, my clothes would come out the right size for a barbie. They didn’t. Thank God. I realised after the first few days that everyone around me were also in the same boat, leaving home, making clothes for barbies, hundreds and thousands of mature “school kids” flooding around me, I finally belonged.